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Name: Matt
Location: California, United States
Birthday: 6/3/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: just muzic...yup...i dont do realli very much =)
Expertise: nuthing! absolutely nuthing! i suk at everything! well, xept 1 thing...i got mad procratinatin skillz :p
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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4/17/2003
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| um...i just posted these so in th future wen i stoopidly delete all these songs i wont get pissed off at myself
p.s. this iznt reelli for th "public" nywayz, butsrry for all th crappiness...u kan tell which songs r my earlier ones [th very very very crappy songs] nd which ones are th more recent ones [th really crappy ones]. unfortunately th 1st couple of songs fall into th first category...
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[Goes to "Crawling"]
Lost in the world.
Everything is hurled.
Why must I feel so,
Blocked from what I should know.
A constant confusion of the daily society,
Weighting me, pulling me.
It’s hard to keep sanity with all chaos rising.
Confusion, Intrusion.
Why’s this world so complex?
Never makes any sense.
(A feel that none of this is real and I’m assured that there’s more to life than what is heard)
I wish this weren’t real.
Need time to heal.
Chaos arising.
Daily plans always turning,
Unplanned distractions.
From all of my life’s factions.
This shift from day to day is pulling me apart.
So lost, and tossed,
It’s hard to keep sanity with all chaos rising.
Confusion, Intrusion.
Pulled from understanding,
Into reprimanding.
(A feel that none of this is real and I’m assured that there’s more to life than what is heard)
I wish this weren’t real.
Need time to heal.
Lost in this world.
Problems are unfurled.
Sense is never made.
But lost in the shade.
Lost in the world.
Everything is hurled.
Why must I feel so,
Confusing, confusing this world
(A constant confusion of the daily society, still weighting)
Confusing this world
(This shift from day to day is pulling me apart, so lost)
Confusing this world
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Sliver"]
Last night I called; no one was there
Went to your house; you still weren’t there
I called your cell, and I got scared
I wondered where you were (x8)
I phoned your friends, none of them knew
Then I wondered what I should do
Then I realized I missed you
I wondered where you were (x8)
I called the cops, reported you
They said that they’d do what they could do
You were now on headline news
I wondered where you were (x8)
And the next day, I saw you in
My doorway, how’d you get in?
Oh yeah you were, on vacation
I wondered where you were (x19)
Now I know where you were
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "One Step Closer"]
I cannot fake it anymore
Smiling’ the way I’ve never smiled before
All these acts are just a lie
Pretty soon you’ll find out why
The more I act the worse it gets
Between us both everyday
Every day…
Every time I act for you
My love gets weaker
and my hate grows great
I need to be more of me
Instead of doing everything you want
cuz I’m tired of trying to fake
I wish the answer was more clear
I’m not getting anywhere
All these acts are just a lie
Pretty soon you’ll find out why
The more I act the worse it gets
Between us both everyday
Every day…
Every time I act for you
My love gets weaker
and my hate grows great
I need to be more of me
Instead of doing everything you want
cuz I’m tired of trying to fake
I need to find another way
Some way, other, than this (2X)
Cuz I’m tired of trying to fake
Every day…
Every time I act for you
My love gets weaker
and my hate grows great
I need to be more of me
Instead of doing everything you want
cuz I’m tired of trying to fake
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Innervision"]
Mysterious, caught up in bliss
The way that you feel, All things seem unreal
The hours pass, The problems last
Why did you take this, the reason is so
Enigmatic, enigmatic
A broken stance, lost in a trance
Your double vision, hallucination
Your in the sky, clouds fill your eyes
A stress reliever, the reason is so
Engigmatic, enigmatic
Now the veil of shame clouds your eyes now that it’s done
And you can’t retract
Draining your life, taking by force
Now the veil of shame clouds your eyes now that it’s done
And you can’t retract
Draining your life, taking by force
For fun!
Enigmatic [x5]
Your double vision, hallucination
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Highway Song"]
I know the way you think
You think the way I know
I’m never gonna be so open
I’ve learned not to
My mind keeps churning your thoughts
Your thoughts lose all their zeal
My skull is now as thick as tin
Why mine never are blight
Inflicting your sight
A word sets off your psyche
Your psyche controls your mind
Speeding so fast you hear the drone
I’ve learned not to
Tension, builds, high
You’re kneeling at His feet
Rejection sets off the fight
Why mine never are blight
Inflicting your sight
never our blight
Inflicting our night
The way you read my mind
I fill the fissures that you lack
I’m strung out from your vine
I fill the fissures that you lack
The way you read my mind
I fill the fissures that you lack
I’m strung out from your vine
I fill the fissures of yours that you lack
I fill the fissures that you lack
I fill the fissures of yours that you lack
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Brain Stew"]
You like the things I’ve done for you
And just like glue you hold on tight
As days pass by
I’d like to die
But there’s no turning back from here
Both of us…start to rust
My brain feels like it’s gonna fry
I’m sure you’d like to eat it raw
My mind is blank
I’ve walked the plank
Fell off and drowning in my sleep
Both of us…start to rust
You’re starting to look like my mom
I’ve been with you for way too long
A broken chain
And all in vain
And all because I welcomed you
Both of us…start to rust
My brain feels like it’s gonna fry
I’m sure you’d like to eat it raw
My mind is blank
I’ve walked the plank
Fell off and drowning in my sleep
Both of us…start to rust
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Adam’s Song"]
As I look back, into my past
I don’t know how any of this could last
Unsteadiness, what did I miss?
It’s like decay has blown me her kiss
Rotting away, allotting the pain
Dealing with this drives me insane
From what I know, nothing to show
I hope you enjoy this little ode
The sun falls down into the sky
The moon receives its glorify
Upon the night are wishing stars
I’m wishing now but there are bars
Conceal the scars, as I depart,
I’m so forgotten, I can’t start
I find it late to hate these times
I must start now and revitalize…
As I look back, into my past
I steered the life and crashed too fast
After I leave, say what you want
But while I’m here don’t be upfront
So disconnect, let go the threat
I’m too dumb to swing this net
I let it go, and now I know
That where I’m going I can grow
The sun falls down into the sky
The moon receives its glorify
Upon the night are wishing stars
I’m wishing now but there are bars
Conceal the scars, as I depart,
I’m so forgotten, I can’t start
I find it late to hate these times
I must start now and revitalize…
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Aerials"]
Our country’s at a fall,
Some of us want war,
And others want peace more than all.
Protesting in streets
Cops clear the way
They’re put in jail
But only for today.
Cuz some want peace and others want war
Some can’t stand it
Yet others want more
And we are the ones that want to choose
But when we elect
Our sorrow’s in the news
Fighting men, risking life
Some of them will live,
But others die. Our country’s at a fall Some of us protestors
And others of us want more than all.
Protesting in streets
Cops clear the way
They’re put in jail
But only for today.
Cuz some want peace and others want war
Some can’t stand it
Yet others want more
And we are the ones that want to choose
But when we elect
Our sorrow’s in the news.
Fighting men, risking life
Some of them will live,
But others die.
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "The Metro"]
I’m with you
Wondering where I left my past
I don’t know
How I’ve stayed here to last
I remember when we died
It was further than last night
But there’s no heading back
I still don’t know how we see
I remember looking for a way to fight
Hoping we’d each take a different light
I remember you sleeping next to me
All now is forgotten
I was smiling as I stroked your hair
Then realized
Nothing was there
Minutes passed by with no true words
As time passed I felt the hurt
Minutes passed by with no true words
As time passed I felt the hurt
I felt nothing there
Shaken as I pulled away
Nothing
I remember the letter I wrote in my hand
Standing in front of the mailbox and
I remembered what we use to have
All now is forgotten
I still feel that feeling taking over me
You awoke and asked if I was ok
I remember not responding
All now is forgotten
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Unstable"]
I gave everything
I could sacrifice
I fulfilled your needs
You caused my demise
I’m farther from you
Then I ever was
So don’t you tell me
That it’s not enough
I’m lost
The cost has been your cause
I’m sick of all your laws
Now I’ll turn the tables
So you
Can do what you want to
But I still won’t give through
Now I’ll turn the tables
I asked you if I
Could have my own time
You basically said
That my time was dead
I cannot stand
The way you treat me
I’ll stop your command
This time I’ll come through
I’m lost
The cost has been your cause
I’m sick of all your laws
Now I’ll turn the tables
So you
Can do what you want to
But I still won’t give through
Now I’ll turn the tables
I’ll turn the tables [x2]
Sick of your labels [x2]
I’m lost
The cost has been your cause
I’m sick of all your laws
Now I’ll turn the tables
So you
Can do what you want to
But I still won’t give through
Now I’ll turn the tables
I’m lost
The cost has been your cause
I’m sick of all your laws
Now I’ll turn the tables
So you
Can do what you want to
But I still won’t give through
Now I’ll turn the tables
I’ll turn the tables
Sick of these fables
All of your labels
I’ll turn the tables
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Going Under"]
Soon I will end what you have put me through
So many times we have cried
Unsure of the future; we were so lost
Where is this all heading
You took the wheel and drove me through this hell
But now I am taking over
And finally I’ll be able to steer us through
Forcing myself to forget the brakes
I’m trying again
I’m taking the wheel
Leading us out
I’ve endured too much hell
I’m switching the route
I’m taking the wheel
Steering and leering ourselves from the past
Still tire tracks linger in the rear view mirror
Like road kill that’s left on the side
Speeding to avoid what’s left for the dead
Speeding my way through this one-lane highway
I’m trying again
I’m taking the wheel
Leading us out
I’ve endured too much hell
I’m switching the route
I don’t mean to be
Mean but that’s all I can be
You won’t lead me down again
Clutching my gears and now I’m taking the wheel
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Adam’s Song"]
The nights go by, I’m still alone
A family of four yet no one home
I see the knife, enticing me
Sometimes I’d rather just let go and be free
The darkness plagues, I feel so weak
But to be left alone is what I seek
Depression spreads, through my mind
I recall when life was fine…
I cannot conquer, all this pain
My fits back then were so inane
Nights where I, wanted to die
Just to escape out of this lie
The hurt inside, got to defy
To beat it down, and I’ll survive
This memory book, stays on the shelf
I need to do this by myself
The nights go by, I’m still alone
I’m too afraid to answer the phone
It could be some, one I don’t know
And isolation beats unknown
So insecure, without a cause
I live by my alienated laws
And till I die, which may be soon
I’ll stay forlorn in this cocoon
I cannot conquer, all this pain
My fits back then were so inane
Nights where I, wanted to die
Just to escape out of this lie
The hurt inside, got to defy
To beat it down, and I’ll survive
This memory book, stays on the shelf
I need to do this by myself…
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Smells Like Teen Spirit"]
Are you my friend, is this the end?
I’ve tried to look but never went
I’m so confused and still abused
I kept, I kept, what you loosed
Faded, faded, faded, fate did
Faded, faded, faded, fate did
Faded, faded, faded
Now that we’re done, is there no fun?
Is there no one, who can be one,
To support me, to be near me
Is there no one, who can be one,
A discussion, such aggression, then prevention, with intention, Why?
You walked away, for today
But today is so far away
The two of us, use to be
Something that, now can’t be seen
Faded, faded, faded, fate did
Faded, faded, faded, fate did
Faded, faded, faded
Now that we’re done, is there no fun?
Is there no one, who can be one,
To support me, to be near me
Is there no one, who can be one,
A discussion, such aggression, then prevention, with intention, Why?
Now I forget, just how we met
But still, I will remember it
You were so near, yet still I feared
The day, that you, would not be here
Faded, faded, faded, fate did
Faded, faded, faded, fate did
Faded, faded, faded
Now that we’re done, is there no fun?
Is there no one, who can be one,
To support me, to be near me
Is there no one, who can be one,
A discussion, such aggression, then prevention, with intention
You and I will (x9)
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[Goes to "Points of Authority"]
Bring down your name, just like you should
Give up your claim
You knew that you would
Bring down your name
Cuz when it’s all done
If you do right
You will have won
You have taken too much power
I’m taking all this pain every single hour after hour
You can’t accept, when you have lost
You soon
Will pay, the cost
You like to think you're never wrong
(You take authority)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what you've stolen)
You want someone to obey you
(You take authority)
You want to share what you've been through
(You live what you've stolen)
You have taken too much from me
And eventually we will soon start to see
That you can’t keep, up this act
What you’ve
Done will, retract
You like to think you control me
(You take authority)
You have to act like you're better
(You use what you've stolen)
You want someone to obey you
(You take authority)
You want to spread what you've abused
(You use what you've stolen)
Bring down your name, don’t even try
To stay on top
Cuz you will die
Bring down your name
And if you give up
You might perhaps
Not swell up
Bring down your name, just like you should
Give up your claim
You knew that you would
Bring down your name
Cuz when it’s all done
If you do right
You will have won
You like to think you're never wrong
(You take authority)
You have to act like you're better
(You use what you've stolen)
You want someone to obey you
(You take authority)
You want to spread what you've abused
(You use what you've stolen)
You like to think you're never wrong
(Bring down your name)
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're better
(Bring down your name)
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to obey you
(Bring down your name)
(You live what you've learned)
You want to spread what you've abused
(Bring down your name)
(You live what you've learned)
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Giving In"]
I am, breathing
My last breath tonight
No one, knows me, and I am far from the light
Wake up, just to, realize that I’m alone
I’m breaking down, tonight
Falling apart
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no other way
I’m breaking down tonight
Slowly rotting
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no way to escape
I’m breaking down tonight
Fucked up, my life
Grasping all the pain
Everyday, is always the same
I’m so, alone, and I have lost my home
I’m breaking down, tonight
Falling apart
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no other way
I’m breaking down tonight
Slowly rotting
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no way to escape
I’m breaking down tonight
(oh no)
Now is the night, where I can be free
I take out the knife, and watch myself bleed
The pain has got me
Watch me decay
Decay
Decaying now!
Falling apart
(The stress has slaughtered me)
There’s no other way
(I slave through misery)
Slowly rotting
(Can’t bear my treachery)
There’s no way to escape
I’m breaking down tonight
Falling apart
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no other way
I’m breaking down tonight
Slowly rotting
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no way to escape
I’m breaking down tonight
Falling apart
I’m breaking down tonight
There’s no other way
I’m breaking down tonight
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Here To Stay"]
These days now seem like a haze
I never miss it
I hope that this is a phase
No need to cry
So I grasp the pain and throw it out the window
For once I mite see the sky decay decay
The fear is always growing
As I sit still always knowing
And overflowing all the haunting lessons again
My sleep is now a mirror
Reflecting all the fear
All I can do I sit here
As the pain is growing more near
There has to be some options
I can’t trust anyone
This fright gripping my lungs
And I wish there was some way to run
My trepidation
Destroys my consolation
Is there any way to breathe?
Guess not it seems
This apprehension consumes all my attention
Nothing is left to mention decay decay
The fear is always growing
As I sit still always knowing
And overflowing all the haunting lessons again
My sleep is now a mirror
Reflecting all the fear
All I can do I sit here
As the pain is growing more near
There has to be some options
I can’t trust anyone
This fright gripping my lungs
And I wish there was some way to run
Paranoia, All I feel [x4]
And it’s all I / you feel [x5]
The fear is always growing
As I sit still always knowing
And overflowing all the haunting lessons again
My sleep is now a mirror
Reflecting all the fear
All I can do I sit here
As the pain is growing more near
There has to be some options
I can’t trust anyone
This fright gripping my lungs
And I wish there was some way to run
Some way to run [x3]
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Somewhere I Belong"]
After you left
My mind was blown away
And I’d feel the pain of emptiness everyday
Why did you die?
Why did you have to get in that car /just to
End your life so early; it was so bizarre
To see you go
But now I feel my wounds have been healed
And I’ll erase my past to have my fate sealed
Although you’re gone
I’m not/and I’m here to grow
And the past is the past
And I’ll never look back
I want to find
Find my own mind
Cuz my past is now concealed
I want to focus on my future from now on
[I’ve been in my past for too long]
I want to find
Find my own mind
Cuz I’ll now move on in time
I’ll do something I should have done all along
I will now move on
And I am right here to stay
And now all my thoughts are right back in their place
Although you died
I am still alive/and now I am revived
And it is like you were never here in my life
So you are gone
You’re no longer in my veins
Where you’re the only one that I see
Although you’re gone
I’m not/and I’m here to grow
And the past is the past
And I’ll never look back
I want to find
Find my own mind
Cuz my past is now concealed
I want to focus on my future from now on
[I’ve been in my past for too long]
I want to find
Find my own mind
Cuz I’ll now move on in time
I’ll do something I should have done all along
I will now move on
I will never look
Back into the past because it is past
And I will never cry
For you because my fate is now sealed
I will never think
About you cuz I’m now in my present
I’m now in my present
I won’t look back at you
I want to find
Find my own mind
I will now move on
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Carousel"]
This hate won’t die no matter how hard I try
You thought you could lie just to get by
But tonight I found you in the act
You can’t retract this incredibly bad fact
Now you’ll never see me near you again
Now you’ll never have me as a friend
Now you just want to go back in time
But you can’t and this is all because you lied
You can only keep this up for so long
You can only keep this up for so long
You can only keep this up for so long
It’s to late to go back
You know you can’t keep this up
Why did you deceive to have me leave
This can’t stay, can’t stay with you
Don’t ever try to fool me cuz you
Just won’t succeed, won’t succeed with me
And in the end you think truth can bend
I won’t be fooled, and it’s this anger that gets me fueled
You think it’s something you don’t have to worry about
But eventually one day you’ll hear me out when I walk out
But today’s that day when I have a say
And I’m leaving you now because I know you won’t change
Continue and fight but you’re not contrite
I guess you’ll never learn but I’ll make it through all right
You can only keep this up for so long
You can only keep this up for so long
You can only keep this up for so long
It’s to late to go back
You know you can’t keep this up
Why did you deceive to have me leave
This can’t stay, can’t stay with you
Don’t ever try to fool me cuz you
Just won’t succeed, won’t succeed with me
Try to plead to me and I’ll ignore you
I’ve tried to do everything I could for you
Try to plead to me and I’ll ignore you
I’ve tried to do everything I could for you
Why did you deceive to have me leave
This can’t stay, can’t stay with you
Don’t ever try to fool me cuz you
Just won’t succeed, won’t succeed with me
Why did you deceive to have me leave
This can’t stay, can’t stay with you
Don’t ever try to fool me cuz you
Just won’t succeed, won’t succeed with me
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Close Friends"]
You seem to think that what you say doesn’t matter
I’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done
Sit back and watch as our relationship shatters
We’re closed in so there’s nowhere to run
You seem to think that what you say doesn’t matter
I can’t forget about all this shit
Tonight you lied, I know inside that you don’t care about me
I see your falsehood, there goes our trust
You lied to me, and now I see that there’s no way we can be
I’ll take action, watch us both rust
Tonight I will put up the fight
I can’t just wait as you feed me your fables
And now the tables have turned and everything will begin to change
It will rearrange
And now you’ll see me as I leave because you did this to me
I’ve had enough of these fucked up lies
This is so gay, and there’s no way that I’ll forget what you said
I see your falsehood, there goes our trust
And you can’t say, that you will change because your lies are like lead
(Lead)
I’ll take action, watch us both rust
Odium
I shed my trust in you
Tell me what to do
Hurt my heart with pain
No
You give me all this pain
[Repeat]
Tonight you lied, I know inside that you don’t care about me
I see your falsehood, there goes our trust
You lied to me, and now I see that there’s no way we can be
I’ll take action, watch us both rust
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "I-E-I-E-I-A-O"]
Matthew’s momma mined another
Multicolored mutant llama
Matthew’s momma mined another
Multicolored mutant llama, How!
Eating meat off your finger
Crushed his spleen to watch it linger
Eating meat off your finger
Crushed his spleen to watch it linger, How!
A little lady, years gone by
Full of hating, don’t say hi
A little lady, years gone by
Full of hating, don’t say hi, How!
Kicking ass, with a ruler
Slapped him once, made it duller
Kicking ass, with a ruler
Slapped him once, made it duller, (siren.)
Don’t question the ones in charge
Just remain in your own barge, How!
Cuz we shout it all out!
Matthew’s momma mined another
Multicolored mutant llama
Matthew’s momma mined another
Multicolored mutant llama, How!
Eating meat off your finger
Crushed his spleen to watch it linger
Eating meat off your finger
Crushed his spleen to watch it linger, How!
A little lady, years gone by
Full of hating, don’t say hi
A little lady, years gone by
Full of hating, don’t say hi, How!
Kicking ass, with a ruler
Slapped him once, made it duller
Kicking ass, with a ruler
Slapped him once, made it duller, (siren.)
Don’t question the ones in charge
Just remain in your own barge, How!
Cuz we shout it all out!
Don’t question the ones in charge
Just remain in your own barge, How!
Cuz we shout it all out!
False fairy-tales embellished
All serve embodiments
Of an anthem stated things
Whimsical teachings
Fanciful leachings
One ear, eerie but here
Pressing the presses to connive!
Don’t question the ones in charge
Just remain in your own barge, How!
Cuz we shout it all out!
Don’t question the ones in charge
Just remain in your own barge, How!
Cuz we crafted the route!
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Faint"]
You’d like for me to just give in
While you slowly take control
We both hate these days like hate of sin
But I still won’t will your rule
You just want me to be
The puppet of your strings
But no matter what you do
I still won’t let you
Take control of me
Now we both sit, what to do
We know this problem’s nothing new
Turn from me and keep up hate
But change won’t happen cause it’s too late
There’s no way that we can stop this now
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
We can’t solve this if we don’t know how
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
These days I feel memories
Inflicting all the pain
Remembering what we use to have
But now it’s not the same
And we both know that it won’t change
You had to have supreme command
And I’ve never held a stand
But now it’s time for you to hear
What was always there
My fight against being held like sand
Now we both sit, what to do
We know this problem’s nothing new
Turn from me and keep up hate
But change won’t happen cause it’s too late
There’s no way that we can stop this now
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
We can’t solve this if we don’t know how
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
You!
Can’t believe you!
You’ve always tried to tear me
Into pieces!
And you!
Can’t believe you!
You’ve always tried to tear me
Into pieces!
It’s you!
There’s no way that we can stop this now
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
There’s no way that we can stop this now
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
We can’t solve this if we don’t know how
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
There’s no way
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
We can’t solve
It’s just gone way too far
We are full of doubt
Face away and pretend that I'm not
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Breaking The Habit"]
Disparity
Has taken over me
You seem to think you control me
You are my mind
You use to be kind
But now you just won’t let me be
I do not want this to last
Because you always choose
And inside I realize
That I’m just being used
You treat me with disparity
Like you are my backbone
You have gotten the best of me
But I’ve tried to condone
Magnanimity was my way
But now it’s time to fight
So I’m taking what is mine
I’m taking what is mine tonight
You must realize
Relationships have ties
The two of us makes one couple
In our hands we
Both share authority
I won’t just let you take control
I do not want this to last
Because you always choose
And inside I realize
That I’m just being used
You treat me with disparity
Like you are my backbone
You have gotten the best of me
But I’ve tried to condone
Magnanimity was my way. But now it’s time to fight
So I’m taking what is mine
I’m taking what is mine tonight
It’s time I take action
In this fight I must win
You took authority
It’s time that I am me
You treat me with disparity
Like you are my backbone
You have gotten the best of me
But I’ve tried to condone
Magnanimity was my way
But now it’s time to fight
So I’m taking what is mine
I’m taking what is mine tonight
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Still Waiting"]
So can you please tell me
Why I’m left alone and suffering
Thought that you could help me
Now I’m left here and rotting
When you left me I thought I’d be dead
You leaving was like a broken command
I’m now in a state of depression
I just lost my best relation
You were the center of attention
All broken after months of precision
I’ve thought about you all day
But now it’s all changing
So can you please tell me
Why I’m left alone and suffering
Thought that you could help me
Now I’m left here and rotting
Insults and misunderstanding
Should have all given it away
Now there’s nothing for me to believe in
How can I? After you leaving
How much of this can I take?
Not much cuz it’s makin me shake
I’ve thought about you all day
But now it’s all changing
So can you please tell me
Why I’m left alone and suffering
Thought that you could help me
Now I’m left here and rotting
I can’t last forever
Thoughts of you make me shudder
I feel alone at home
No one for me
And you don’t know
Is my life worthless?
Let me
Let me
Let me know
What have I done?
I’m in a battle that can’t be won
This can’t be real
Emptiness is all I feel
So can you please tell me
Why I’m left alone and suffering
Thought that you could help me
Now I’m left here and rotting
So can you please tell me
Why I’m left alone and suffering
Thought that you could help me
Now I’m left here and rotting
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "ATWA"]
I’ve tried, to find, room for my mind.
All my life I’ve tried to block out the dark.
Now I, never, can be, clever.
All my life I’ve tried to block out the dark.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
And you, are me, not so lucky.
All my life I’ve tried to block out the dark.
Never seeing, any clearly
All my life I’ve tried to block out the dark.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I don’t know, what is right.
I don’t do, what is right,
I don’t try, what is right,
I don’t see.
I’ve tried, to find, room for my mind.
All my life I’ve tried to block out the dark.
Now I, never, can be, clever.
All my life I’ve tried to block out the dark.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I will never see the light.
Never tell me what is right.
I don’t know, what is right.
I don’t do, what is right,
I don’t try, what is right,
I don’t see.
I don’t see, what is right,
I’ve always been controlled by the night,
I never thought I’d loose the fight,
I never thought I’d miss the light.
But now the light’s gone,
I can’t think straight.
Everything’s gone wrong
Now I’m hooked bait.
Waiting to be caught, captured, taken over.
By the ignorance, so, I better move over.
There’s nothing that I can do now.
All my sense has been knocked out.
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Numb"]
A shadow of doubt lingers inside of my pride
With nothing inside, and I just can’t abide
Can’t think clearly with my feelings tied
Took out all the treasured times that I’ve shared with you
(Trapped in my own deceit, just trapped in my own defeat)
Every time that I lie rips out all that’s inside of me
(Trapped in my own deceit, just trapped in my own defeat)
I’ve become so trapped
Don’t know what to do
How would you react
If now I told you
I’ve become a lie
But I want to try
To release through time
Everything inside
Don’t you know that I’m trying to be
I’m lying to see, what I’ve missed all these years
So frequently I have tried to be me
I can’t share myself when I’m next to you
(Trapped in my own deceit, just trapped in my own defeat)
Every time that I lie rips out all that’s inside of me
(Trapped in my own deceit, just trapped in my own defeat)
And every time that I lie makes me break down inside
I’ve become so trapped
Don’t know what to do
How would you react
If now I told you
I’ve become a lie
But I want to try
To release through time
Everything inside
When I hide I keep everything from you
Cause inside I am just too scared
That you might turn your back on me too
I’ve become so trapped
Don’t know what to do
How would you react
If now I told you
I’ve become a lie
But I want to try
To release through time
Everything inside
I’ve become so trapped
Don’t know what to do
A shadow of doubt lingers inside of my pride
I’ve become so trapped
Don’t know what to do
A shadow of doubt lingers inside of my pride
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Undone"]
[Aditya:] Hey, dude, I’m using my new workstation!
[Matt:] All right.
[Aditya:] It’s so awesome, and it cost $3000!
Thousands of programming and sounds at my fingertips!
[Matt:] Yep.
[Aditya:] I’m making my own programs on the Triton! It’s so fun!
[Matt:] Uh huh.
[Aditya:] The sweet sound if Triton! You know I got the pro x version?
So it’s not the plastic stuff the usual Tritons are made of! It’s sweet!
[Matt:] All right.
[Aditya:] And I got the smart media card to save any data I want!
[Matt:] Yep.
[Aditya:] And I can download sounds off the internet! They have
over three thousand sounds for the Triton online! It’s so cool!
Somewhere
Not here
I need
To be
Doing
Something
That’s free
Just leave
If you want to discuss the weather
Don’t expect me to look concerned
[Jeffery:] Hey, you know the bio test?
[Matt:] Uh huh.
[Jeffery:] What did you put for number 48?
[Matt:] I dunno.
[Jeffery:] Cuz I think I confused the contacting vacuole’s function for plasmolysis. And did you put true for the one about smooth endoplasmic reticulum?
Here come
Someone
Must run
See you
Adieu
I know
You’re slow
So I dash!
If you want to discuss the weather
Don’t expect me to look concerned
I’ll soon drift off, I’ll be in dreamland
Snoring out aloud (snoring out aloud)
Cuz I don’t care
If you want to discuss the weather
Don’t expect me to look concerned
I’ll soon drift off, I’ll be in dreamland
Snoring out aloud (snoring out aloud)
Cuz I don’t care
I don’t want to discuss the weather
I’d much rather just close my ears
I’d like to be somewhere where my mind can be empty
Snoring out aloud (snoring out aloud)
Cuz I don’t care
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Runaway"]
All of my tribulations
Down below my blooded skin
Can’t hear my incantations
I’ve felt so weak within
The prayers that I’ve sent you
Were more than you could mend
I must not be your intention
(Never mention this to me again)
Bleeding me my own frustrations
(Never mention this to me again)
I need to lose myself
Just release this stress
I need to break apart
So I can make some sense
I need to find protection
Fill these vents
I’m gonna breathe no more
And knock down this fence
Soak my ears with noiseless voices
They’re eating at my spine
I pray my incantations
I wish that all was fine
All my sleepless nights of terror
I point them now at you
I must not be your intention
(Never mention this to me again)
Bleeding me my own frustrations
(Never mention this to me again
I need to lose myself
Just release this stress
I need to break apart
So I can make some sense
I need to find protection
Fill these vents
I’m gonna breathe no more
And knock down this fence
I need to lose myself, to just release this stress
Gonna break apart (4x)
I need to lose myself, so I can make some sense
Gonna break apart (4x)
I need to lose myself, and knock down this fence
Gonna break apart
Gonna break apart
(Stress)
Gonna break apart
Gonna break apart
(Sense)
Gonna break apart
Gonna break apart
(Stress)
Gonna break apart
Gonna break apart
I need to lose myself
Just release this stress
I need to break apart
So I can make some sense
I need to find protection
Fill these vents
I’m gonna breathe no more
And knock down this fence
I need to lose myself
(I’ll stop these dreams today)
I need to lose myself
(This is the only way)
I need to lose myself
(The toll’s too much to pay)
I need to lose myself
(It’s not enough to pray)
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "And One"]
Where to begin, broken within
I hate this frustration and the stress always wins
Here by myself, no one to help
Need to feel something so I won’t break apart
I need to escape my life
I can’t explain, how I’ve searched long in vain
Cuz losing my way, is how I end the day
I need to escape my life
Of bliss I feel so deprived
I’m too far, for you to reach
You cannot feel me
I’m too far, too out of reach
For you to even see me
Grasping a sign of divine to find delight
Pulling you out of my sights to know I’m right
Grasping a sign of divine to find delight
Pulling you out of my sights to know I’m right
Grasping a sign of divine to find delight (grasp)
Pulling you out of my sights to know I’m right (pull)
Grasping a sign of divine to find delight (grasp)
Pulling you out of my sights to know I’m right (pull)
I need to escape my life
Of bliss I feel so deprived
Grasping a sign of divine to find delight (grasp)
Pulling you out of my sights to know I’m right (pull)
Grasping a sign of divine to find delight (grasp)
Pulling you out of my sights to know I’m right (pull)
You’re my witness
You’re my witness
You’re my witness
You’re my witness
Blood drips from the raw of the shapeless hateness
Gothic galvanism begins your knee bends
Start all right now the part where widows of dead
With your thoughts all read, and all said, with both our dread
Held by tight ropes unstable high slopes
Hurt by my own hopes
The fractured glass of shattered dreams
Mangles my thoughts in haste and segregates
And burdened to bring the swift swing
Into the thought of seeing
Being the only being to be the one kneeling
Dealing with the stress slicing a puncture of death
Haste is the reason why hating is so sharp with every face
Itinerary with no ending
Bending and sending optional vending illegally
The grave slaves to make the betrayed
To make all your lives frayed with dead times to degrade
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Don’t Stay"]
These days I go crazy when I hear your name
These days you make me just want to go insane
These days I’m so angry, you wouldn’t know
These things drive my patience low
You whore
You are just a whore
Just a whore and nothing more
The way that you were playing me
I can’t believe you lied
You bitch
You are just a bitch
Just a bitch and it won’t switch
I can’t believe you cheated me
I can’t believe you lied and
You played
I can’t believe I’ve trusted you this much
And now I just get so angry from your touch
These days I’m so angry, you wouldn’t know
These things drive my patience low
You whore
You are just a whore
Just a whore and nothing more
The way that you were playing me
I can’t believe you lied
You bitch
You are just a bitch
Just a bitch and it won’t switch
I can’t believe you cheated me
I can’t believe you lied and
You played
Looks won’t help you anymore
I refuse to love a whore
I can’t believe you deceived
So now it’s time for you to leave
Looks won’t help you anymore
I refuse to love a whore
I can’t believe you deceived
So now it’s time for you to leave
All because you played me
You whore
You are just a whore
Just a whore and nothing more
The way that you were playing me
I can’t believe you lied
You bitch
You are just a bitch
Just a bitch and it won’t switch
I can’t believe you cheated me
I can’t believe you lied and
You played
You lied
Truth died
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "In The End"]
You must go, leave me
It is no lie
If you stay our relationship will die
So don’t be blind
It is your duty to stop this fighting
You must leave
I had a wonderful life
Till you came and backstabbed me like a knife
Watch this pain, it’ll never go away
So I’ll end it today
You’ve wrecked my life
How were we to know
That we’d each end up at each other’s throat
I know that you will make the right choice
You should leave me now, then go out and change
We kept everything inside and even though we tried, our love broke apart
What it meant to be will eventually be a memory of a time when
We tried our best
But lost the rest
But now it’s time
We realize it just won’t work
It’s time to leave
We shouldn’t deceive
Ourselves thinking
We could keep up a false dream
One thing, open your eyes
It didn’t even change after all of our tries
Keep that in thought to find what lose sought, a relationship that couldn’t break apart
In spite of the threat of disparity
We chose to keep up in our hopeless dreaming
Remembering all the times we denied the past
Not surprised that it didn’t last
Things aren’t the way they were at first
Our newness and freshness replenished each
Each other’s thirst
Now those times are at an end
Cause we all started to realize the truth
We kept everything inside and even though we tried, our love broke apart
What it meant to be will eventually be a memory of a time when
We tried our best
But lost the rest
But now it’s time
We realize it just won’t work
It’s time to leave
We shouldn’t deceive
Ourselves thinking
We could keep up a false dream
We put our trust in the
Falsehood of hopeless dreaming
Because of this
It’s all very simple to see
We put our trust in the
Falsehood of hopeless dreaming
Because of this
It’s all very simple to see
We tried our best
But lost the rest
But now it’s time
We realize it just won’t work
It’s time to leave
We shouldn’t deceive
Ourselves thinking
We could keep up a false dream
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "Forgotten"]
From the east to the west
Ahead of the rest
From the north to the south
Better shut your mouth
From the day to the night
Out of your sight
And from the night to the day
Yo, you rot away
I said from the east to the west
So go clutch your chest
And from the west to the east
You’ll end up the least
So from the day to the night
I’m out of your sight
And from the night to the day
Yo, you rot away
There’s a guy who tries to fill up your eyes
With pitch black signs of the geometric designs
He leaves dust in your eyes and
Naturally, you’ll know that it’s sin
Then as you guess how he opens out
Through a door in which no one can scout
A beam of string with a ring
And rolls down to the world of hell
But then winds back up and starts to fail
From the east to the west
Ahead of the rest
From the north to the south
Better shut your mouth
From the day to the night
Out of your sight
And from the night to the day
Yo, you rot away
Through the dust you can try me
No giving in
Just make sure that you can see
Unless you wanted not to win
So why ask now
Let loose that string that can bound
Pulling with its grip tighter to down
There is no sound in a merry-go-round
That spins but gets nowhere in town
A tiny particle of an article of a long lost ad
Floats like a fad through the mad
The weaponry now is what used to be peace
And pieced together the niece of deceased
I said from the east to the west
So go clutch your chest
And from the west to the east
You’ll end up the least
So from the day to the night
I’m out of your sight
And from the night to the day
Yo, you rot away
Through the dust you can try me
No giving in
Just make sure that you can see
Unless you wanted not to win
And now you got me past the class
You spin by so fast
I’m letting you know
I see the tricks in you [x7]
Through the dust you can try me
No giving in
Just make sure that you can see
Unless you wanted not to win
Through the dust you can try me
No giving in
Just make sure that you can see
Unless you wanted not to win
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "By Myself"]
How can you tell me that I am perfection?
Even when I am my own intention?
Even when pleasing myself is so enticing
And all of my own thoughts are centered on me?
When I’m nothing but a dogmatist
And my heart is focused on avarice
Is there any hope of gregariousness
Or is there nothing left for me but loneliness
Because I’m all I think about every day
And pleasing myself is my only way
It’s impossible to please others when
My reflection is my only friend
And I can’t
(I can’t)
Love you now
(Cuz in my thoughts are just)
In my thoughts are just feelings of me
(of me)
Selfishness
(I try not to be but)
In my thoughts are just feelings of me
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself is all I care for
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself has now become my sin
To others I am apathetic
I now realize I’m pathetic
I can’t hide my pride and admit that I’m
Maybe not the only one to spend my time
This is just more than a foible and
I’m starting to sink in my own selfish sand
And if I can’t learn the cause of compliments
Then I’m afraid I’d be exposing my arrogance
And I can’t
(I can’t)
Love you now
(Cuz in my thoughts are just)
In my thoughts are just feelings of me
(of me)
Selfishness
(I try not to be but)
What do I do to ignore them behind me
In my thoughts are just feelings of me
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself is all I care for
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself has now become my sin
How can I love
When all I know
Are my own needs
And I can’t grow
How can I feel the emotions of you
When all I know is what I want to do
Can’t you (see)
All that I can understand is (me)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can’t seem to convince myself (why)
I’m egotism
Can’t you (see)
All that I can understand is (me)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can’t seem to convince myself (why)
I’m egotism
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself is all I care for
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself has now become my sin
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself is all I care for
I can’t love you
(When pleasing me is my only whim)
Myself has now become my sin
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "My Name Is"]
Chorus: repeat 2X
Don’t! Be angry…And! Stop hating….Just!
Make sure you’re..(chicka chicka) not violent!
Don’t! Be angry…Just! Stop hating….And!
Make sure you’re..(chicka chicka) not violent!
Hey yo! Excuse me!
Can you give me your attention right now?
For just one sec?
Hi men! Are you violent? (I guess)
Do you need anger management classes like I did? (maybe)
Do you like to beat up little kids? (sure)
Get rid of all of them by spraying them with acids? (sweet)
Whenever you’re late, your anger makes you wanna hate (yeah)
But you can’t decide on which congressman you want to assassinate (hm…)
Psychiatrists say, “Don’t get mad just right away”
Why not? “Give your brain a say. Try it today!”
But since age twelve, you’ve sent eight people to hell
And you’re probably next, either that or jail
Got ticked off and sliced your teachers lips off
And she sent you to after school detention until six o’clock
You kick ass like Lara Croft and write hate mail on Microsoft
More than you imagine till your brain rot
Fuck you bitch! (Hey you, hold on a sec, I didn’t do nothing!)
I don’t give a shit, every minute I need to have a problem!
Chorus
A mental institute tried to cool you down inside
But it was no use, no matter how much they tried
You set your instructor on fire, whipped him with barbed wire
And rolled him around in a tire (ahhh!)
Walked in a poetry club, stuck your middle finger up
Laughed at them all, and got drunk till you’re fucked up
Trashed your friend’s funeral, and set the coffin on fire
Threatened the mortician with gunpoint, while he says, “I was just hired!”
50% of your life you’ve thought about killing
The other 50% you were sleeping
And sometimes you have dreams about revenge
Like hanging your bitchy aunt over a ledge (ahhhh!)
Sometimes you get angry and blood rushed to your head
And start rampaging like the hulk till everyone’s dead
This guy at a hospital asked you to donate some blood
(Dawg, can you please help me?)
So you filled the tube, that is, with catsup (ahhh!)
Chorus
Stop the hate! Stop the violence and stop the pain! (what for?)
It’s so cruel, don’t just sit there, you’re insane!
Go control you’re anger, and think all your thoughts through
And after that shit’s done, go do some charity too!
(What the?) What am I sayin? This isn’t me at all
So forget all that I said, go have a ball! (all right!)
Go ahead and claim a couple of lives
And beat up a few kids, and then chop them up like chives
(haha!) Go kill like Jason or Freddy (hm…)
Wait till you’re ready, Then chop off their heady! (c’mere)
But when you get older you’ll be on the run
So then you can go and ransom some rich dude’s son
Torture him for fun! (ahhhh!)
Don’t be a slave to anger and try to fight it
Be a professional and with some practice you’ll ride it (yee haw!)
Be furious
And by the way if you get caught? (yeah?)
Don’t tell them I’m the one whose tips you sought
Chorus
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "The Real Slim Shady"]
Can I get your attention please?
Can I get your attention please?
Will anyone who enjoys their life please stand up?
I repeat, will anyone who enjoys their life please stand up?
Anyone?
These days it feels like life’s not worth living anymore
Head tilted to the floor cuz life’s just such a bore
So what am I putting through with this shit for?
I just need more, more than school crap and literature
And everyday it’s the…”Damn, no, can’t be, life sucks,
Did I just wake up to go to school and read textbooks?”
And the truth is…of course not, you jackasses!
There’s much more to life than taking school classes!
But when summer comes there’s nothing to do
(chigga chigga chigga) It’s summer, I’m sick of it
Look at this, walkin around in the hot hot heat,
With nothing to do, “Yeah but when school comes through…”
No! I miss the days when we had nothing to do
Nothing to loose, just sit in our bedrooms,
Chattin, jackin, doin whatever we like to do!
But it’s over so there’s no more complaining to spew
“The lectures in your brain, the lectures in your brain!”
And if you’re lucky, you’ll be able to maintain being sane
But it’s too late to save some people from insanity
But insanity’s ok as long as you don’t have vanity
Of course suicide may seem right
By the time you hit twelve o clock at night
There just doesn’t seem like much hope, does there?
But life will pull through soon, or at least,
By the time summer comes back in June
But if we can endure mind maps and vocabs
Then there’s no reason our lives need to end up in rehabs
But if you need to be free, if you need some good weed
First try an alternative, so you’ll still want to live
Chorus: (2X)
This is life, yes sadly I’m right
And we got to endure this everyday and night
But won’t all you people just lighten up,
Lighten up, lighten up?
Some people don’t have to get wasted to feel happy
Well some do, because their lives are so crappy!
You think every one else’s life is perfect?
For most people it’s not even worth it!
“But hey, what if today, you won the lottery?
Or maybe found peace within your misery?”
Ha, yeah right. Maybe when I’m fantasizing.
Damn, these days most people are realizing
That their lives will probably never get better
Even though they’ll continuously work harder
Pathetic lives, we’ve all got insecurity
“Yeah, and most of us will probably have a bad ending!”
Some lives turn out to be nothing
And they result in nothing but anger and cussing!
I’m sick of complaining and moaning, all it does is its growing
So I have resolved myself to stop it
And there’s a billion of us just like me,
Just like you, who have nothing to do
Nothing to lose, some without shoes
And feel like life’s not worth it and it’s just shit!
Chorus
I’m like a xanga to listen to, cause I’m only telling you
The grim facts that everyone goes through
The only difference is I got the facts here in these raps
To admit that life is so boring we could take naps
I’m just here to admit it
That life is shit it, isn’t what you want it, and there’s no way from it
Except suicide but fuck it
We all got to find positivity in our society
It’s haunting, knowing that when I’m forty,
I’ll be working at some lame job and life’s still boring
Typing up documents or working with settlements
And I’m trying to be positive but I find no will to live
And every single person knows they have this feeling lurkin
Knowing the pointlessness of workin for some jerk and,
Everyone’s frustrated and aggravated
so much they’ve tried to raid it and they hate it
try to fade it but can’t erase it
So will anyone who enjoys life please stand up?
Cause right now we’re so faithless we could be cheered up
And be proud to be one of the few who do
Enjoy your lives, now, who are you?
Chorus 2X
Oh well
Guess there’s some hope in all of us
Forget it, let’s all stand up
~~~~~~~~~~
[Goes to "I’m Back"]
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: That's why they call me Matthew Schwartz! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
That's why they call me Matthew Schwartz! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
That's why they call me Matthew! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
That's why they call me Matthew Schwartz! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew! Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
I mess up a rhyme one line at a time
You’ve never heard of a rhyme as messed up as mine,
So right now it’s my time to shine
But what can I say?
All I ever do in my spare time is write hate mail all day
I’m waitin for fame, such shame, damn, every day’s the same
I’m so, bored in this place, I’m blank on my face
I actually used to like origami at ten
Now all I ever do is jack off over and over again, Sometimes I
Smoke weed when I need to be free
Till I stick a knife in my knee
And realize I was high when I bleed
I used to really suck
Now I even suck more
And when I’m a sophomore? I won’t!
I’ll just fail
Get held, back for a year, or more, not sure
It’s just too much work, you jerk,
It’s too early for work
What is work?
Not tonight
Whatever I think is wrong, whatever they think is right,
This is the policy for teachers at Irvine High
Because I’m just a student whose D-U-M-B
And Gumby is getting tortured in front of me, in history
Can’t wait till I’m finally free
Now is life worth it?
Look at our lives.
How are they perfect?
Over here fag, what, your ears won’t function?
Out of zone now?
In yesterday’s luncheon?
Hey, you’re right here to give me your attention!
Matt: That's why they call me Matthew Schwartz! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
That's why they call me Matthew Schwartz! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
That's why they call me Matthew! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
That's why they call me Matthew Schwartz! (I’m here)
I’m here (I’m here)
School Choir: It’s Matthew!
Matt: I’m here (I’m here)
I see the media and immediately reach a certain degree
Where I can’t stand to see all these pop retards singing
And those who give into this shit become innocent an victim
And there’s so many retards out there I can’t even list them
(record scrathing)…my fame is non-lasting
I’ve been lazy ever since this whole “middle school thing”
~~~~~~~~~~
You and me, we have no faces
We shed our lives as time unwinds
Anonymous, full of promises
Deteriorating within the lines
Defamation of the nation’s, planned out reputation, the segregation of
What’s here, what’s not, the lives they’ve got, the dreams we sought
Falsehood now renown, devoid of sound, silently picked off the ground
Do you know how I feel
When I see that flag?
Loosing sight of what’s real
Forgetting what we had
Don’t forget those dreams
They’ll never go away
And they may rot, it seems
But I’ll make sure they stay
By myself, with an army
We line up here without a cause
We don’t know, what is missing
But we know the flaws
The guns begin their rampage
Across the broken vows
And they’re not on the first page
The disappearing crowds
The clowns begin to see
All this hypocrisy
But stay under the sheet
Down where the fires meet
Standing up, breaking chains
Is impossible in vain
Knowledge low, they’ve kept us down
Without a word, they switched around
A people’s nation, what a joke
I feel constrained within this yoke
You do to, I know you do, don’t kid yourself, the truth is few
And now I know just how to bleed
My way out of this conspiracy
Suicide, I decide, is not an option cuz they lied
To get them back, for what they lack
An accumulation of a nation without patience is intact
Time is low, so give me ears
I can help fight off these fears
Rebellion bellows through the ghettos
Unforgiving at the gallows
And now I ask you, lend me hands
And let’s fulfill our founding fathers’ still unbothered firm demands
~~~~~~~~~~
Nothing else is left…
Everything is gone…
I use to think I was strong…
Everyday, even though it went unnoticed,
There was hope inside me that was promised.
But now, all of it’s gone.
All of it’s wrong.
And it lasts all day long…
Nothing is left.
Except for one…
That one is…
Emptiness.
I use to be secure,
Knowing that, in time of need,
There was someone for me.
Now, everything’s gone.
Everything’s wrong.
I’ve lost it all.
Nothing is left.
Except for one…
That one is…
Emptiness.
Sometimes I sit, staring down,
At my lonely feet on the ground.
Knowing someone else should be next to mine.
And then everything would be fine.
But as I lift my head and have it turn.
The emptiness makes my heart burn.
Burn (X~~~~~~~~~~)
Nothing is left.
Except for one…
That one is…
Emptiness.
Emptiness!
It fills me!
With a passion…
That burns me!
I wish that,
I wasn’t alone.
With no one to,
Talk to at home…
~~~~~~~~~~
Watching, waiting,
For more, degrading.
You’ve pushed, me too,
Far from, you.
Slowly, I drifted,
From your, insipid,
Mind games, and tricks.
This can, not be fixed.
Slowly, I drifted,
From your, insipid,
Cheating, and tactics.
Your cruel, habits.
Now I, can see,
What’s been, happening.
Slowly, we’ve drifted,
Apart, and lifted,
Up your disguise,
Revealing, your lies.
Your lying eyes…
We’ve been, too close.
So I, suppose,
It’s time, to leave.
I hate when, you deceive.
You’ve kept your lies too long.
You should have known that you were wrong.
You should’ve stopped when you had the chance,
Now I’ll never give you a glance.
You’ve done what love forbids,
You should’ve known tricks are for kids.
~~~~~~~~~~
When will my life
Break free from these vines?
I need a knife
To draw the lines.
You seem to think
That we are one.
When in reality
The separation’s just begun.
I am entangled
In this web of fear
I’ve lost my identity
Cause you’re always here.
You’re constantly with me.
I’m constantly with you.
I hope you’ll start to see
Our relationship is through.
Like a sponge you ab-
Sorbed me into you
All that we have had
Can never be renewed.
So now I take a stand.
It’s time for you to go.
No more are we like sand.
My life will be my own.
When will my life
Break free from these vines?
I need a knife
To draw the lines.
You seem to think
That we are one.
When in reality
The separation’s just begun.
I’m sorry but
You’ve pushed too far
And I’m tired of
You holding me like tar.
So now I take a stand.
It’s time for you to go.
No more are we like sand.
My life will be my own.
And now I am
Detached from your vines.
I used my knife
To draw the lines.
You seemed to think
That we were one.
When in reality
The separation’s already done.
~~~~~~~~~~
I asked you if you could help me to see the light
You told me that you’d do what you thought was right
You led me
I followed
Tragedy
We sorrowed
I followed you
Through and through
And now I don’t know what to do
You fell away
What can I say
I just wish that you could see me now
I told you that you couldn’t do what you thought was true
You told me to see things differently with sympathy
I knew that you lied
When you said you were fine
But I let you lead anyways
And now that trust decays
I followed you
Through and through
And now I don’t know what to do
You fell away
What can I say
I just wish that you could see me now
You led me
I followed
Tragedy
We sorrowed
You head me
I’ll follow
Confidence
So hollow
So hollow
So hollow
So hollow
So how low will you
Take me
Under
Down there
A blunder
And now I see
What you’ve done to me
So vulnerable
It’s unsolvable
I followed you
Through and though
And now I don’t know what to do
You fell away
What can I say
I just wish that you could see me now
Follow me
You will see
Its ok
We’re all right
Follow me
Follow me
You will see
You will see
That we’re all right
At least for tonight
We’re all right
For tonight
We’re ok
For today
It’ll get better
~~~~~~~~~~
You say stand
And I’ll raise my hand
Up to the sky
You say sit
And my ass will fit
Wherever it might
You say shut up
And I will zip up
You say something
I’ll be listening
Cuz whatever you want
I’ll do what you need
Fill up your greed
Just take heed
I won’t always be weak
Just one more week
And then you will see
Me being me
You tell me to do
What you want me to
And I fill follow
Cuz my pride is hollow
Courage is down
Not making a sound
But I’ll grow the strength
The time be of length
But
Eventually
You will see
Who is me
Who be me?
I be me
And you will see
Eventually
You say stand
And I’ll raise my hand
Up to the sky
You say sit
And my ass will fit
Wherever it might
You say shut up
And I will zip up
You say something
I’ll be listening
Cuz whatever you want
I’ll do what you need
Fill up your greed
Just take heed
I won’t always be weak
I’ll soon start to speak
For myself
So watch yourself
So watch yourself
So watch yourself
So watch yourself
Just watch yourself
You…say…jump…
You’ll…hear…the thump
But when…you…say…fall
I’ll hold…the bowling…ball…
And knock you down! (down!)
And knock you down! (down!)
I’ll knock you down! (down!)
So stay on your ground! (ground!)
Cuz you tell me what to…do!
What you want me…to!
And I will follow
Cuz my pride is hollow
Courage is down
Not making a sound
But I’ll grow the strength
Yes I’ll get my strength.
~~~~~~~~~~
Hit me, by surprise!
That glint, in your eyes!
It told me, that you!
Never were, that true!
A glint…
Gave it all away…
Gave it all away!
Why did you lie?
Now you’re gonna pay!
All in due time!
When we met, I thought that you,
Never would lie,
Because it was just not you.
But now I see,
Steadily,
That you were,
Ahead of me.
Why did you lie?
Did your truth die?
Now I’m confused,
And so abused…
Life taught me,
That, to succeed,
Lies must be,
Gone from me.
But I guess you won’t succeed!
Cuz you lied to me and I’m sick of that shit.
Now, I’m leavin’ and you’re stuck alone.
With nothing to support you except your bone.
And now I wonder why,
It never died!
Until just now!
Because you lied!
I guess I’ll never trust you!
Because I was deprived,
Of all of my trust!
That was inside!
Gave it all away!
Why did you lie?
Now you’re gonna pay!
All in due time!
Gave it all away!
Why did you lie?
Now you’re gonna pay!
All in due time!
Gave it all away!
Why did you lie?
Now you’re gonna pay!
All in due time!
~~~~~~~~~~
Overruling me is something I feel with anxiety.
Tearing me apart until I can’t be with society.
It’s made me alone and , oh, so desolate.
Stressing me so much, wish I could conquer fate.
Something, urging me,
Not to, see family.
Just be by myself,
Away…
Overruling me!
Tearing me apart!
Made me so alone!
Wish I could just depart.
This feeling that I’m describing,
Inside me it’s thriving.
For some reason it’s tellin’ me,
Not to be where others be.
To be on my own.
In solitude.
But I can’t do that,
It’s just too crude!
Something, urging me,
Not to, see family.
Just be by myself,
Away…
I’ve tried…to overcome.
To go where others…had come.
I’ve tried…to be social.
But a barrier blocks me…
Blocks me!
Blocks me!
Blocks me!
It blocks me!
It’s stopping me…
From achieving…
The friendship that I so desire…
The loneliness…
Erasing bliss…
Bliss (X8 fading)
Where has it all gone?
Where have I gone wrong?
Why is it so hard to talk?
Why is it so hard to walk,
Into the depths of society…
My anxiety,
Leaning on me…
~~~~~~~~~~
These years
Have putrefied my tears
No longer do I cry
I just wait to die
And…
These ears
Have listened to my fears
No longer do I hear
And never can I cheer
And…
These eyes
Have wiped away my lies
And purified our times
The times when we were fine
Cuz…
These years
(I’ll never forget them)
And your tears
(I never meant them)
Our fears
(There’s nothing to fear now)
So why?
(Are you afraid now)
Sometimes
I think of what you said
I realize
Your lies hit me like lead
But erased
After you smiled
And after a while
I feel like a child
Cuz…
These years
(I’ll never forget them)
And your tears
(I never meant them)
Our fears
(There’s nothing to fear now)
So why?
(Are you afraid now)
I never meant them
(All of your tears)
You cannot forget them
(All of those years)
The past is gone
It has passed by
It won’t be long
Before I say hi
And everything
Will be ok
Can’t you trust me?
With what I say?
Never did I mean to
Ever ever hurt you
Never could I hate you
I would really hate to
These years…
These years…
Trepidation
And apprehension
Elimination
Of what I mentioned
Try to forget
What I said
Try not to remember
That was last December
Never again,
Will it happen, just mend
Everything that I said
We don’t need to be dead
Cuz
These years
(I’ll never forget them)
And your tears
(I never meant them)
Our fears
(There’s nothing to fear now)
So why?
(Are you afraid now)
~~~~~~~~~~
I’m tired of living my life in regret.
I’m tired of taking risks that make me sweat.
But still I’m tired of not taking the chances,
And being stared at with all of your glances.
I’m tired of being alone in this world.
And never taking risks when I need to.
And when I take them my life is hurled.
Propelled by all the lies I’ve told to you.
But now I wonder why I live this way.
Going to bed every night fearing the upcoming day.
I’m too scared of change so I don’t take the risks.
And when I do their success is missed.
I never know just what to expect.
And my lack of confidence eating at my respect.
I’m tired of being alone in this world.
And never taking risks when I need to.
And when I take them my life is hurled.
Propelled by all the lies I’ve told to you.
At first I thought my lies would hide my scars.
But you dug them up and now I’m in caged bars.
I’m trapped from my lies and excuses of life.
I feel like I’ve been stabbed in the back with a knife.
I’m so tired of being alone…
Never taking my risks home…
And running from my lies…
Being caught by surprise…
I’m tired of being alone in this world.
And never taking risks when I need to.
And when I take them my life is hurled.
Propelled by all the lies I’ve told to you.
I need to change myself today.
I’m afraid that there is no other way.
This exhaustion of daily routine,
At the beginning was always seen.
Burying it in my excuses and lies,
Never solved the problem, it just wasn’t wise.
And now I hope the scars haven’t grown too deep,
So they attack me in my dreams when I sleep.
Oh please, I need to change myself.
Or else I’ll be hidden in the depths of my life’s shelf.
I’m so tired of being alone (in this world).
And never taking risks (when I need to).
And my life is hurled (when I take them).
Propelled by all the lies I’ve told (to you).
~~~~~~~~~~
Keep silent;
Keep quiet.
Hear that?
That’s my,
Love for,
You…
Notice…
How it’s quiet?
That’s my,
Love,
For you!
You (X4)
Everything I’ve done,
Has been awarded with one,
Price to pay…
It’s putting up with you!
Putting up! (X2)
Putting up with you!
It’s putting up…
Putting up…
With you.
No matter how hard I’ve tried.
Defending myself from lies.
I can’t seem to find,
Any kind,
From you…
Who just thinks for one.
That one is you,
And only you.
Revolving on,
Everything you do.
Nothing I’ve done,
Has earned me one,
Small little break,
From all this hate!
But as you see,
It’s also about me.
And if you can’t accept it,
Then you will have left it.
Everything I’ve done,
Has been awarded with one,
Price to pay…
It’s putting up with you!
Putting up! (X2)
Putting up with you!
It’s putting up…
Putting up…
With you.
Everything I’ve done for you,
Has never and won’t be true.
I’ve done enough for you.
It’s time that you take a clue!
For you!
Everything’s come unglued.
For you!
How could you have been so crude?
For you!
From you!
To you!
You looked at me
I looked at you
We both knew
What we were gonna do
We both made out
Inside your house
And then
Your Dad walked in
What happened then?
He kicked me out
He’s not my friend
And he shouted out
“Get the f*ck away from my daughter!”
But these are the things that we like to do
These are the ways that we can get through
It’s not easy, being a teen
It’s not easy at all
And then that night
You came over
Your Dad didn’t know
You were undercover
I snuck you in
We both made out
Inside my house
And then
My Dad walked in
Speechless he was
And all because
He never knew
What I could do
But he was mad
And also sad
Because he had known
That he let me go
Alienated over these years
So separated, he didn’t see my tears
He never knew just who I was
After I started growing up
But these are the things that we like to do
These are the ways that we can get through
It’s not easy, being a teen
It’s not easy at all
No it’s not easy at all
So can someone please tell me
Can anyone help me
There’s no way to see
How the future will be
Cuz it’s not easy, being a teen
No one to save me
No one really knows me
But that’s ok
I’ll make it through
The same way
That we always do
And maybe then
Everyone will see
Just how hard it is to be me
Cuz these are the things that we like to do
These are the ways that we can get through
It’s not easy, being a teen
It’s not easy at all
Cuz these are the things that we like to (do!)
These are the ways that we can get (through!)
It’s not easy, when you’re just a teen
No, it’s not easy at all
It’s not easy at all
~~~~~~~~~~
Yo, it takes a lot of shit to get through this game
It takes even more of it to get fame
So why fight so hard to get acclaimed?
With one wrong move and you be shamed?
Cuz even with all the stakes, and all it takes
To get by fakes, you can’t lay down
Once you’ve entered rap ground
Once you’ve made a sound
In rap, you can’t back down
Without being disgraced
Anything other than first place
Is too harsh to face
So why fight your way?
And take the chances?
What do you have to say
That’ll attract the masses?
Cuz if you’ve got something to say
You better say it today
Cuz we ain’t got all day
Cuz if your gonna take this way
Today, then pray
Cuz all of they
Are ready for you
With guns in they hands
Cuz this, they say
Is what it demands
So get ready to die
So don’t just play around
And say you’re down
With picking up the mic
Without the goal of being renowned
Cuz your goals be big or your goals be gone
And once you start to dig it won’t take long
Before the pressure builds up inside
You never should have lied
In your earlier days
Cuz now your ways are being exposed
Cuz in you prose are contradictions
All inflictions, so stop the fiction
Cuz if you truth ain’t able to be stable enough
For the label to like it enough
Then that’s just too tough
And it’ll be rough, so quit the bluff
Cuz we’ve had enough
So why do we bully our way in this game
Of hip hop fame, tryin to make a name
And not be the same
As the hundreds of other emcees
Oh please, we’ve had enough of your pleas
For sympathy, cuz simply we,
Just don’t give a damn
Of your problems and,
Your near death life span
With other rival gangstas shootin you up
Trashin you life, cuz we say “wussup”
Holding the knife, holding you life
And getting ready for scythe
So with the rivalries and robberies and briberies
Waiting on the streets, and in you line, in you path,
Ready to woop some serious ass
Cuz if you gonna take this way
Today then pray
Cuz all of they
Are ready for you
With guns in they hands
Cuz this, they say
Is what it demands
So get ready to die
Why fight the odds?
Cuz oddly enough, it’s hardly enough
To act like you tough and show off you buff
Cuz in you words you must be assured
Rest assured that you’re ensured
That you’re insured with life insurance
Cuz it’ll take endurance to fight the currents
~~~~~~~~~~
I’m so sad…
You were mad.
Because I,
Couldn’t find…
My meaning!
My meaning!
Why am I here?
What is my use?
Am I just wasting space?
Overpopulation taking place?
Why am I here?
What is my use?
Am I just wasting my time?
Or is there some reason that I’m fine?
Why am I here?
What is my use?
Am I just another soul walking the earth?
Or was there another reason I was given birth?
I don’t know why am here.
I wish the reason I’m looking for were more clear.
Am I just waiting for my death?
Or is there reason why I was pumped with breath?
Osama brought justice to all the terrorists.
Mother Teresa brought peace to politics.
Gandhi brought to the world what was lost through treachery.
And Black Beard brought the world stories of treasury.
Mathers used rap to defy a common thought.
Alexander the Great made sure all his battles were fought.
Abraham Lincoln brought justice to the slaves.
The inventor of ice cream brought justice to victims of sunny days.
When you say I’m thinking thoughts that are beyond me.
I ask you what if that was thought by Gandhi!
Why am I here?
What is my use?
I feel a need to know why,
I am here or should I just die?
Am I simply a filler.
A filler, is that all I am?
If it is, well, then dam!
I guess I’m just wasting my time.
Using the air of other’s who use theirs better than mine.
So, should I stop takin the air?
Or should I not go there?
I don’t know, what to do.
I’ve pondered this question through and through.
Can you tell me?
What do I do!
Chester:
I don’t know,
What to do…
Wastin my time,
How bout you?
Are we just, insignificant specs…
Put on this earth to work and pay checks…
I don’t know!
Do I have a cause!
What’s my reason?
Or is my reason lost!
~~~~~~~~~~
Looking into the darkness of a time,
When I used to think I was fine.
But in reality,
It wasn’t what I wanted to see.
I was clouding out the truth.
Wasting my youth, in lies.
No surprise.
Look into my eyes.
And tell me you don’t see lies.
I despise,
All these tries,
To lock out the truth.
Fogged up in lies.
Sometimes I remember myself,
Not accepting the truth,
But living in denial.
Shadows of truth crawled out of me,
But steadily,
I buried them.
All gone…
Now I wish I didn’t,
Cuz now all the truth,
Wants to emerge,
Such a serge,
Of anxiety,
Pressuring me.
I wanna lock it all away.
Pretending I don’t feel this pain.
Then I’d always feel the same…
In doubt.
No surprise.
Look into my eyes.
And tell me you don’t see lies.
I despise,
All these tries,
To lock out the truth.
Fogged up in lies.
Fogged up…
In these lies…
The clouds cloud up…
All these lies…
Hidden, not revealed…
Quiet, and concealed,
Why?
Why?
Why!
Fogged up!
My whole life!
Fogged up!
My whole life!!!
It’s clouded,
And, I’m afraid that,
No matter what I do,
I won’t be good at,
Revealing the truth,
Unconcealing,
Just revealing,
All this swelling.
All this swelling.
All this swelling.
All this swelling…
No surprise.
Look into my eyes.
And tell me you don’t see lies.
And I despise,
All these tries,
To lock out the truth.
Fogged up in lies.
Just fogged up…
All fogged up…
Will the truth ever be told?
It’s getting hard to keep the mold.
I’m afraid I cannot hold,
I’m afraid my time has been sold.
~~~~~~~~~~
You and me, we have no faces
We shed our lives as time unwinds
Anonymous, full of promises
Deteriorating within the lines
Defamation of the nation’s, planned out reputation, the segregation of
What’s here, what’s not, the lives they’ve got, the dreams we sought
Falsehood now renown, devoid of sound, silently picked off the ground
Do you know how I feel
When I see that flag?
Loosing sight of what’s real
Forgetting what we had
Don’t forget those dreams
They’ll never go away
And they may rot, it seems
But I’ll make sure they stay
By myself, with an army
We line up here without a cause
We don’t know, what is missing
But we know the flaws
The guns begin their rampage
Across the broken vows
And they’re not on the first page
The disappearing crowds
The clowns begin to see
All this hypocrisy
But stay under the sheet
Down where the fires meet
Do you know how I feel
When I see that flag?
Loosing sight of what’s real
Forgetting what we had
Don’t forget those dreams
They’ll never go away
And they may rot, it seems
Cuz they want them to fade
Standing up, breaking chains
Is impossible in vain
Knowledge low, they’ve kept us down
Without a word, they switched around
A people’s nation, what a joke
I feel constrained within this yoke
You do to, I know you do, don’t kid yourself, the truth is few
And now I know just how to bleed
My way out of this conspiracy
Suicide, I decide, is not an option cuz they lied
To get them back, for what they lack
An accumulation of a nation without patience is intact
Time is low, so give me ears
I can help fight off these fears
Rebellion bellows through the ghettos
Unforgiving at the gallows
And now I ask you, lend me hands
And let’s fulfill our founding fathers’ still unbothered firm demands
Do you know how I feel
When I see that flag?
Loosing sight of what’s real
Forgetting what we had
Don’t forget those dreams
They’ll never go away
And they may rot, it seems
Cuz they want them to fade
Do you know how I feel
When I see that flag?
Loosing sight of what’s real
Forgetting what we had
Don’t forget those dreams
They’ll never go away
And they may rot, it seems
But I’ll make sure they stay
This song will never end [fade out]
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My life is waste
I cannot get rid of these lies
They’ve piled up
And now it hurts so much inside
I’ve tried asking
If anyone could help me heal
But all that’s happened
Is letting go of what’s real
You see this time
I cannot ever let you go
I’ve lost so much
And now you’re the last thing I own
You see this time
I cannot ever let you go
I’ve lost too much
And now you’re the last one I know
And one by one
They found their way
To the place
That gives us the rain
They lay so calm
Now that they’re gone
And I’d be alone
If wasn’t for you
So stay with me
And help me get through
I’m sorry but
I can’t allow you to leave
So stay with me
As I turn this key
You see this time
I cannot ever let you go
I’ve lost too much
And now you’re the last thing I own
You see this time
I cannot ever let you go
I’ve lost too much
And now you’re the last one I know…
Last one I know…
Last thing I own…
Last one I know…
You may join,
The other’s soon
But stay with me for now
I’m not through with you
I can’t let you leave
Just stay with me
Not ready to let you go
No one else, I know
No one else I know…
No one else I know…
Hey where’d you go!
Where’d you go!
Where’d you go!
You can’t escape me!
You see this time
I cannot ever let you go
I’ve lost too much
And now you’re the last thing I own
You see this time
I cannot ever let you go
I’ve lost so much
And now you’re the last one I know
You see this time
I’ve tried to not let you go
So stay in touch
As I rot here down below
You see this time
I won’t forget you again
You’ll stay here with me
Even when you’re at your end
You see me here
Piling up on my fear
I see you leer
But I’ll soon be near
~~~~~~~~~~
Action! (X8)
Action, reaction.
Something excitin’.
This world’s making me fightin’,
For the fight of all of fights.
All the days and the nights.
Fighting for what’s right.
What’s right you may ask.
I’ll lend you the task.
Think you can carry out?
I’ve got my doubt.
Harder and harder everyday,
Just to have some play.
When’s the last time you jumped out of a plane?
Went insane from mud sliding in the rain?
Or maybe went to a skatepark to test your skills.
Grindin on, all of those rails.
When’s the last time you took your car out for a ride.
Not to see the doctor, to work, or to get to the library for a ride.
But to see how fast your car will go?
It’s maximum speed, you probably don’t even know.
Yeah, you know what I’m talking about.
Action! (X8)
Life is boring me.
Need some insanity.
Go crazy and feel adrenaline.
Feel myself get pumped within.
I’ll get drunk if I need to.
This world’s probably boring you too.
What can we do to spice it up?
Anyone with suggestions raise your hand up.
When’s the last time you took a whole day.
Not worryin’ about finishin’ homework but just played.
No taxes to pay, work to be done.
No moppin’ the house, no aarons to be run?
Think long and hard.
It might come to you.
Whether it does or not,
Does this sound like you?
Wakin’ up bright and early.
Only to go to school,
Or get to jury duty?
And after you come home, whatever the time,
Do you start playin’,
Or would there be work that’s delayin’.
Never free time in my life.
Never free time to spend with your wife.
Enjoy your life.
While you still can.
Heaven’s probably the only time you’ll be free man!
I need, to be.
Free from, working.
All this making,
Me so, angry.
Need some free time!
My own time!
Only my time!
It’s my time!
I need to find my life.
It’s buried under my outer life,
Which is just a coating.
Of work and more decoding.
So listen to this song as well as you can,
Can’t find the message?
Might be too late for you, man.
Hopefully there’s still some time left.
Time for you to just drift.
So what if you don’t go to the best college.
Drop-outs are fine, fun overrules knowledge.
Why get a doctor’s degree?
That’s for the doctors, not you and me.
So what if you don’t get a promotion.
Get a vacation and put your life back in motion.
Make some commotion, just make your life real.
Treat it with all you can and zeal.
~~~~~~~~~~
What does it take to be an MC?
What does it take to rap like me?
What does it take to be an MC?
What does it take to rap as good as me?
What does it take to be an MC?
What does it take to rap as good as me?
Grab a pencil or a pen,
Grab some paper, now let’s begin.
First of all, do not stall.
Don’t say things that make no sense at all.
Don’t add a “wick whack” where doesn’t need to be.
All of this gibberish makes no sense to me.
Don’t add a “chicka chicka” to get effect.
Please, please just use proper dialect.
Second of all, rap about things we care about.
Things that all of us can feel in and out.
Showin off your bling bling is nice to sing.
But it’ll bring all the bums out on a stealin’ spree.
Sure, if you want, share about how you are the greatest MC ever.
Only to have people talking about how you aren’t clever.
Third of all, don’t use profanity.
You all know how vulgarity’s so fuckin wrong to me.
So don’t fuckin cuss where it shouldn’t fuckin be.
No one likes to hear bleeps bleapin’ their song.
So don’t cuss, it’s fuckin wrong.
And as for fourth,
What should I say?
Oh yeah, remember not to stall all day.
Insertin’ useless information that you might have said already.
And (huh, what?) don’t put useless sounds. (boom!)
Just to get the attention of the audience falling asleep on the grounds.
And oh yeah, don’t fuckin use,
Words that censorship will abuse.
And now, oh yeah, fourth of all,
Make sure your words are clear to the ear.
Crafted perfectly to inflict fear,
Into the hearts of rival rappers,
Who can’t stand all of your clappers.
So skillfully carve, all of your rhymes,
To blend together so beautifully that it rhymes.
Beat after beat, all of them meet,
When the reviewers of your songs write their thoughts on a sheet.
So be aware,
The critics out there.
Out to give you fear.
But you won’t go there.
You won’t get a scare.
Cuz I will share,
Just to be fair,
These words on top of air,
Floatin in your ear,
Helpin you to put care,
Into where?
You know, there.
Yeah, your song.
So it won’t sound wrong.
Keep this in mind,
All your words combined,
Carefully crafted,
Numerously drafted,
Into a work of art.
I did my part.
Now do yours.
Carry it out.
And when freestylin’,
Make sure you shout,
Out your words loud,
To the whole crowd,
Which may yell at you,
Throwin’ tomatoes and food.
But don’t worry,
Not all are skilled.
Many have tried,
And many of them killed.
And remember,
Just one thing,
What it takes,
To be king.
What does it take to be an MC?
What does it take to rap like me?
What does it take to be an MC?
What does it take to rap as good as me?
~~~~~~~~~~
You thought I was gone.
All my world wrong.
You brought me to my knees.
But now everyone sees,
That I’m back! (back!)
All’s in tack! (tack!)
Thought I was gone! (gone!)
You were wrong! (wrong!)
You thought you saw the last of me.
But now you are gonna see,
How you only me made come back again.
Come back again.
Back again.
Again.
Cuz you stabbed me in the back with a knife.
A knife made to drain my life.
A knife that you perfected with all your skill.
And I fell down to the ground against my will.
Tryin to get up, I finally fell.
Into the bottom of the depths of hell.
Dark it was there, at least I was away from you.
But now I’m gonna stop you from doin’ all the things you like to do.
Cuz I’m coming back with a vengeance.
And a tendence.
To break you within.
Erasing your dependence,
And defendants,
Inside your skin.
Cuz I’m back! (back!)
All’s in tack! (tack!)
Thought I was gone! (gone!)
You were wrong! (wrong!)
You thought that you brought me down…
You thought that you made me drown…
Into the bottom of the well…
And that well happened to be hell…
But now I am here…
Striking you with the greatest fear…
Cuz you thought that you got rid of me.
Decreasing my self-pride steadily.
But now I’m overriding your tricks.
And giving you pain that sticks.
Cuz you thought that you got rid of me.
But your gonna see.
That all the things you did to me.
Are now gonna be your fee.
Cuz I’m back! (back!)
All’s in tack! (tack!)
Thought I was gone! (gone!)
You were wrong! (wrong!)
But now you’re goin’ down.
Get ready to go where I was.
And now you’re gonna drown.
And all of this because,
You were trying to grind.
Me away from any kind.
All you did was bring,
Me down to sing,
The last song I ever sang,
And that music rang,
Into my own grave,
And you didn’t even try to save,
Me from sinking down,
Into the soil all around,
But now I sing one more song,
And that is proof that you were wrong.
You tried the best you could!
Tried to make me plead.
If you could have brought me lower you would.
But now you’re gonna bleed.
Bleed out all of the pain,
That you inflicted on me like acid rain.
And then finally you will be,
The person that I always wanted to see.
~~~~~~~~~~
Is it worth it?
The stuff we learn every single day.
Is it worth it?
How do we know this stuff will pay…off.
Cuz I don’t see the use of it.
It just makes me want to have a fit.
Why do I need to know this anyways?
Will I really need to know this in my future days?
Cuz is it really worth it?
Or is it just shit?
All of it seems useless.
Why do I need to know this?
Learnin’ this everyday.
Will it be in my resume?
Tell me, if I wanted to work,
At some global communications for some jerk,
Would it help if told him I know,
The homophones of “so.”
Would it really matter if,
I knew the side effects if you sniff.
Why should I need to study,
Quadratic equations, they seems so cruddy.
Do I really need to know all about Kublai Khan?
Or how the Roman Empire went wrong.
Does it really matter if I know the equation of velocity?
Or what the scientific term is for toxicity?
Does it really matter?
Does it really?
Does it really matter?
You please tell me.
Cuz is it really worth it?
Or is it just shit?
All of it seems useless.
Why do I need to know this?
Will the manager of Taco Bell,
Care if I know what’s under a snail’s shell?
Will the customers at Burger King,
Care if I can recite “Mercy” while working?
Will all of my, employees,
Give a shit if in school I got C’s?
Why do I need to know how cells reproduce,
If I end up working in Ralph’s produce?
Must I need to know how to factor trinomials?
Polynomials, binomials, monomials.
Quadromials, sesetomials,
Lomomials, ontomials.
Can’t I just listen to aerials?
Man this shit sucks so bad.
Why can’t knowledge just be a fad?
Half the things we learn in school,
Won’t have real world application rule.
Cuz is it really worth it?
Or is it just shit?
All of it seems useless.
Why do I need to know this?
Now as you sit back in your chair,
Listening to your headphones while you stare.
Or stand in line at some store,
Listening to this coming out of a boom box next to the closet door.
Think about what is being said.
Is useless overwork makin’ you wish you were dead?
Will if it then that’s just too bad.
Cuz there’s nothing to do; it just makes you so sad.
Cuz you might stop learning useless stuff.
But in college it’ll get tough.
And even though you won’t need it in a job,
When in school, your grade will be robbed.
So, keep up the shit.
Studyin’ while you sit.
And continue to memorize how to factor those tri’s.
And learn the difference of the metric system in size.
And remember the names of all those battles,
As your head, from studyin’ starts to rattles.
And half of this song is in wrong grammar.
And usin’ slang as it makes such a clamor.
Oh well, fuck it.
It doesn’t matter.
As long as your teacher’s not behind your back, you’re,
Probably safe. Unless you’re a teacher.
If so, why are you a preacher?
Of such worthless things?
Why should we know kings?
And other useless things?
Getting’ mad and ready to sue me?
I’ll stop, so sing the chorus with me.
Cuz is it really worth it?
Or is it just shit?
All of it seems useless.
Why do I need to know this?
~~~~~~~~~~
When I met you
I didn’t know you
I didn’t know how
You could break me out
And I asked myself
Is it worth it
But then I told myself
I can’t just sit
And let you tear me
And let you wear me
For once you’ll hear me
Maybe see me
So maybe I can be
What I want to see
The one who can be
In control of everything
I can do fine
I’m nothing wrong
These problems aren’t mine
We knew all along
It was your fault
But you won’t accept
And that’s the default
But now it’s time for change
I’ve had enough of this
I cannot stand this
I’m sure you’re sick of this
We both don’t like this
So now we’ll end it
It’s time to stop it
And we’ll see if
We can relive
The way that things used to be (repeated)
And now I ask you
Are you tired?
Are you feeling blue
Cuz from what I heard
There is no way
That I can deal with
Everything you say
I just won’t hear it
All your bitching
Makes me itching
For a reason
That this season
I should stay with you
But I don’t think I will
Everything’s downhill
And I’ve had it
Being nomadic
Moving place to place
No place for my face
To shine itself
Without your help
But now it’s time for change
I’ve had enough of this
I cannot stand this
I’m sure you’re sick of this
We both don’t like this
So now we’ll end it
It’s time to stop it
And we’ll see if
We can relive
The way that things used to be (repeated)
So get out of my
My face cuz I
Don’t need you here
I don’t need you there
I don’t you
Really anywhere
Because I’m sleepy
Fighting is heating
And it gets intense
We need a wooden fence
Just enough to
Keep us separated
Yet still weak enough
To so if we can make it
But I doubt it
So come on shout it
Yell it loud, it
Can surround us
It’s not too late for us
We can still repair
Just as long as
We don’t pull our hair
So just stay calm
Don’t detonate the bomb
But now it’s time for change
I’ve had enough of this
I cannot stand this
I’m sure you’re sick of this
We both don’t like this
So now we’ll end it
It’s time to stop it
And we’ll see if
We can relive
The way that things used to be (repeated)
Cuz everyday I
Walk out of the house
I’m standing on the street
And I see a mouse
And it looks so free
But it just can’t be
How can a little rat
Be happier than me
I don’t like that
I need to start to see
What I can do
To erase you
I know I said that
My heart is where you’re at
But now I doubt myself
Cuz I can’t help myself
And up on the highest shelf
There’s a little book
You’ll never see it
You’ll never be in it
You’ll never think it
Cuz you won’t need it
It’s my secret
And you won’t find it
All because it
Is inside my heart
But it’s torn apart
So you don’t ever
Have to worry
About whatever
Inside it may be
Because it’s shattered
All of it’s tattered
They make my heart
That is falling apart
And this all cuz
You don’t like me
And I don’t like you
And I doubt if
There’s anything to do
Or that we can do
If we wanted to
But now it’s time for change
I’ve had enough of this
I cannot stand this
I’m sure you’re sick of this
We both don’t like this
So now we’ll end it
It’s time to stop it
And we’ll see if
We can relive
The way that things used to be (repeated)
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finally...their dun....o nd if ur wondrin itz 81 pgs
bye future matt! [nd no, this iznt reelli third person cuz im not future matt][even tho i will be later on, im not rite now][or am i?]
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| hey! hm...wutz happened 2day..well...nuthin noteworthy... um...yah...that pretty much sums up 2day =) 2day i made a goal 4 myself to start on my hw by 5:30, but obviously it didnt work....it being almost 7 nd i still hafta do 2nite's hw as well as yesterday's hw =( o well...thatz wut i get 4 prokrasinatin... nywaayz,
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| hey! wutzup! hm...wut happened 2day...well...bio wuz pretty good. i got 99 out of 117! yay! =) that means ill probly end up gettin around an 85%. im so happy =) nd i got a 100% on th last quiz. nd th quiz i took 2day wuz th 1st quiz where i actually studied kinda hard - i studied this entire morning! (wich wuz onlii like a lil less than an hr :)] hm..tennis wuz ok, it started out nice nd cloudy but got a bit hotter; of course, i wuznt in th playoffs =)
geo wuz boring as usual, nd i have at least 2 er 3 hrz of geo hw 2nite
history wuz fine, same as usual; wen class wuz over, i retook th apartheid terms quiz
i missed TWO! yay!! that equals to a 91%! yay!o nd btw, 2day i got a whole lotta musik =)
weezer's blue album, offspring's smash, incubus's science, incubus's make urself, nd th soad self-titled cd. all GREAT musik :)
nywayz, i'm not doin much now - i just ate a whole can of green beans nd im kinda just sitting listenin 2 weezer, so...cya!
o, nd 2day i checked out th meeting 4 th american fil society er sumthin; i guess i mite join if it duznt involve 2 much hard work nd dedication [cuz we all kno how much of a lazy bum ass i am :)] ok, once again, l8r! | | |
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